忘记

最近有种莫名其妙的冲动,
想狠狠地,
让自己在寂寞中痛苦, 在孤独中啜饮悲伤.......
曾几何时我也恋上了自虐? 识折磨为享受?

很多事情如果自愿放弃,
就不该要有悔恨......

深夜里的每一首煽情歌曲,
那么轻盈却又疼痛地敲打在被麻痹的心坎上.....
如果真的...被麻醉了.....
那我为何却又会感到痛?

一颗心的容量到底有多少?
可以承载多少伤痛?
一颗心的重量又能有多少?
可以负担伤痛的数量?

我茫然站在此时此刻,
默默细数盘点, 所谓心的各项比例.....
竟不知所措.....
而时间的流逝, 虽然让我淡忘了很多人很多事,
却在某个时候让我惊觉,
让我记起了......
自己的存在.....

多盼望时间也会让我忘了我自己...
忘了使命,
忘了....该忘记这件事情.....

一直也在放弃着....
也许从来就没有拥有过....
我就是喜欢赖在逃避的庇护里,
心虚地局促不安,
却可以用许多理由来埋葬自己......

眼泪的温度,
我已经浑忘......
倘若那感觉还在心里深处的某个地方藏匿着,
那究竟还是温热着的吗?
而我的思绪有否将它升华?

我想,
时间的流逝对于我,
是慢慢地冶炼出一种麻醉药.....
并不是熬炖孟婆汤,
然后我的心就这样, 不由我控制地被控制.....
知道吗?
也许冷漠会是另一帖解药.....

如果有下一场轮廻,
不要让我的心,
再对上你的温柔.....

如果可以....
风过........
也可以了无痕......

yay~~~ I love xmas, at home playing the xmas tree, lol so happy!

My home

Me & my dear bro collecting 12 Horoscope puzzles..... spending many times to puzzle, ^^ now completed sets all hang on the wall... lol 满足感 a lot...

My piano~~ but now seldom play it le.... Out of tune oredy... Black & White, just like those memories which had past....

My daddy & didi hang my pic on the wall above the piano when im not around, gek dao!!!

Staircase...... planting my painting~~~~ The flowers climbing up along the staircase.. ^^

Sunflowers..... quietly sleeping at the corner........

Many Sunflowers in my house.. lol... I draw dao siao liao~~

殇

很久很久.... 没有再拿起画笔了......

我怕有一天我会忘记那种曾经那么灼热的热忱....

人生充满着竞争和淘汰

我会是牺牲者抑或是失败的产物吗?

我的任性究竟还会给谁带来灾难和失望?

曾经翱翔自在的鸟儿竟遇到了雷雨天......
在季末时分......

我在埋藏乔装打扮后的谎言和藉口

不能自拔......

My lovely cousin's present

If u think this cake was bought from cake shop, then u r wrong.... Ya my cousin Josephine baked it, made it 4 me de~~~ OMG!!! She attended baking class and join Hotel cake course...... This cake's name is~~ Opera~~~

Got my name on it yo yo yo.... and the gold colour thingy can be eaten de.... She said tat her teacher mentioned tat Opera cake must have this kind of golden decoration, and this dong dong so expensive de. lol ^^

Here got another little cutie gift from her~~~ Earrings lai de~~ lol nia cute si ren le. Love it so much!

Gift from ah mage & Roxy

Hello ah mage~~~ wat r u doing here?

wooo~~~~ wanna wish nienie happy birthday nia~~ ^^ lol ah mage gift me a lovely doggie, now sleeping on my bed everyday liao! Ty ah mage! ^^

Hello chakkk~~~ Gueass who am I?~~~~

Hehe~~~ Im roxy loh~~~ lol so cute de alien sotong~~~ coming from universe tats y bring along so many stars~~~ ^^

& this ice kacang~~~ lol no lah! Roxy said these r water babies... grow up le~~ ^^

28/10/07 Roxy & me de Birthday

This year's bday so much special to me loh... ^^ Noon time went out 麻辣火锅 with my frens who came down from Seremban. The 麻辣 make us nearly crazy.

Aftertat i went to meet 3 special ppl. Sotong laopo, ah mage & his mei Roxy. Roxy sms me saying tat she wear pink shirt & a dark blue skirt, & her hair messy de. lol wat a funny descripton! And ah mage coming without wearing flower on his head.

After having dinner, we went 4 neoprint.... so funny... dono how to act and played tat stupid machine.... End up wasted 2 pics.... but ok lah so cute de us! Then we went to find place to cut cake, Roxy said she ps wan go flat thr cele.. =.= we forced her to go long john silver.... Both kor kor & mei mei so shy shy de. Anyway......... so happy to see them.. lol Unforgetable bday nia~~ ^^

Bday clip from pik pok

Dear pik & pok making this Bday clip for me, pik pok both inside singing to me lol..... So much gan dong when watching thsi video... T.T ai si ni men... ty!!! Touching, nearly cry out when i watched. :3

Bday Gift from Dear & my Bro

Today went out shopping with my dear, omg i saw this pair of shoes, walao so~~~~ cute and special~~~ Cant help falling in, I asked my dear gift me as Bday present! lol ^^

Light Golden colour, 1 side is Lion, 1 side is Tiger~~~ omg those decorations so so impressive!

See? they r so cute nia~~~ Lion got fur fur de lol!!!

I love the design so much, even the side of the shoes oso decorated with little trees. Dono when I just 舍得穿! T.T

And~~~~ this... my bro ah jia bought me from Shanghai... lol cos i have this cassette b4 but spoilt... ^^ thanks JiaJia....my lovely didi so as the gongon in maple. Muack :3

Gift from nite

Ahemm..... Nite gift me so sweet looking de flower, and a cute cute de pink wing slime? lol ty ty^^ he said cos im having pink wing in maple now.... tats y gift me this cutie thing. yea ^0^

My first Bday Gift ^^

生日礼物Hoho i had received my 1st Bday gift from dearest sotong laogong during the outing with nite and her.....

so nice de packaging nia....
Open it, yoyo got many dong dong inside. >.< Ahhh~~~~~ Sotong giving me herself
And a zhu zhu ya~~~ lol cos she said im oink oink piggy. =.=
Wow...... many many sweets some more... Sotong said wan me stay sweet forever woh.

lol yeah i will~~~~ Ty sotong laopo, ai ni o!

心灵停泊这一刻

今早被一场大雨惊醒......
起来关了窗, 我又倒回去睡.....

这一睡, 竟然是下午4.30pm才醒来....... =.="

我觉得自己有一点小过分, 我想早晨的太阳已经把我给忘了吧?
毕竟我也很久没有看到它了.....

家里还是空荡荡的.....
偶尔听见外头稀稀落落的雨声, 小鸟们与猫咪在聊天, 直升机巡逻的声音.....
还有不知谁家小孩的哭声..........
所以, 我确切的明白, 即使蒙上眼睛, 我也能够鉴定,
我...... 身处于哪一个国度......
所有的声音..... 是属于城市的.

突然想起家里的那几株火球花,
不知开花了没,
从1992年的Kelantan移植到居銮,
上一次回家, 还看到她们乐盈盈地绽放.....
所以啊, 即使失了根, 也会找到自己生存的价值吧?

我想,
我已经被现实世界抛弃3个多月了......
还是我抛弃了我自己?
像是躲在小小的角落, 偷窥整个世界.....
感觉得到应有的颓废, 无助....
也触摸得到时间的流逝....
但是我清楚地知道所谓的无能为力, 是怎么一回事.

于是乎,
我忘了从什么时候开始,
我让灵魂自由徜徉, 任性与倔强是它的养分......
在世间游走, 只因为没有停泊的理由.
也许用了许多谎言编织了自己的存在,
但是我的思绪告诉我,
无尽的愧疚也只是枉然......

也许我不知道自己要些什么,
但也更加也许,
我知道自己不要什么.........

心之所在, 爱之所在也...

呃........
其实有很多东西想写, 但是那种感觉突然变得很微妙,
想写很多很多,
但是又不知道要怎样宣泄出来才好.....

矛盾......

昨晚我的NieNieGenius, lvl 120 了.... 玩了8个月吧?
突然觉得自己很疯..... 这么容易认真投入....

以前lvl很低的时候, 别人都不怎么把你放在眼里....
所以我对自己说啊! 有一天一定要be pro, 决不决不看不起noob...
(我的BF说我孩子气....=.=)

在Ludi PQ了一个月, 那时候的伙伴们到现在还在玩的寥寥无几了....
从DD2到SS,
从lvl50++认识Angel, GT啦! 我add的第一个member Jakie 啦......
GT以前常常在guild里面叫我们Sit, pee, bad, chat..........
然后就被我们骂咯.....哈哈哈...真够可爱的他! =.=
还有啊....我的xiaobai kor, Immerz, Nite, Ah Mage, Roxy, pepe dear, Sally, chinyap, Dark啦.....
到后来又有DD, 阿Nic, 阿Pik, Valno, iris, Teo.....blah blah blah........

从GPQ no rank till enter top 50 rank,
Really been through a lot nia.......
Lots memories... Stories..........
我的心紧紧联系着SS.... Nite said im too stress 4 it... really mah?
Just folo my heart onli nia.....
现在啊......MSN也可以gathering了...... =.=

没有SS, 没有大家, 就没有我了.....

来来去去,
xiaobai kor quit le....... 也有新人在玩.....
有一天,
我也不知道会在哪里吧?
也会有人离开我吗?

SS里的每一个人,都构筑了我的存在......
如果把灵魂困在虚幻的世界太久.......
会忘了自己在真实世界里的存在吗?

不舍...... T.T

永远不会忘记, 1/9/07 这一天.....
最后一位跟我同居了将近七年的室友兼好友, 搬走了......

虽然知道这也是没办法的事, 但是人还是会失落......

2001 那一年,
懵懵懂懂的...执意孤单一人拎着行囊来新加坡念艺术学院...
刚开始的时候, 经历好多好多挫折和不如意的事.
想哭... 只能埋首于枕头里哭.....

直到认识了佩晶和婉忆, 我们同样来自銮中....
于是乎, 就一起找房子, 住在一起.....
Been through a lot..... 因为常常被这里的屋主欺负啦! =.= 我们几乎每一年都搬一次,
算起来, 搬了5次了....

还在念书的日子是快乐的, 因为有她们....
我念的是珠宝设计, 她们念室内设计.....大家常在一起做功课到深夜,
有Accessment的时候, 更是没有睡觉的.....

那个时候的晚餐时间,
我们都会等彼此下课回到家以后,再一起出去吃.
有时心血来潮, 会轮流煮一道菜, 然后挤着一张小桌子, 一起吃....

真的很怀念呢!

一起赶功课, 一起逛邻里小店, 逛街, 聊天, 八卦, 庆祝生日, 甚至一起回居銮......

时间, 还真流逝地不着痕迹.....
渐渐地, 大家开始工作了..... 回到家就做各自的事情,
等到大家都有了BF, 就更不常聚在一起了.....

晶先离开我们, 搬走了.....
现在是Unice.....
只剩下我了.....
7年了...... 我们在一起.........
许许多多的回忆, 仿如昨日....
她们是那样的照顾我这个小妮子.....

突然间很想哭, 但是却没有泪水流溢出来.......

当Unice走的时候, 我真的有很多话想说,
可是全都哽在心里, 说不出口....

想想, 我有好久没有哭了......
不知从什么时候起, 感性的我开始变得有一点冷冰冰......
是社会的磨练吗?
以前的我当知道她们有男朋友了, 还会激动地哭泣的.........
现在的我却没有办法....

曾经说过,
什么也不必说..... 因为我们都了解的......

当回忆, 在心里凝结成永恒.....
眷恋, 似乎成了一种痛....

逝去的当然不能复回,
人到了一个阶段, 都在为自己而活了....
快乐很短暂, 而明天依旧降临....
突然没来由的觉得很孤独...... 仿佛被整个世界抛弃了.....

想念妳们...
想念过去的我们.....
愿一切依然美好, 在人生的新旅程......

Happy ^^

Today.....
Glad to know tat our GTForce get back his acc le~~~~
Feel so sad and dono wat can help when he told us he kena banned.....

In guild BBs he said he keep crying as a baby.... T.T (sayang......)
Finally..... 雨过天晴了...... ^^ and get back his baobei Genki.

Erm.....
Another happy thing is i have done my another artwork today..... 1 class A objet design,
and 1 class C objet design... haiz take me so long time, partly i slack oso lah... =.=

But the 代价is my left hand cacat loh...... so painful.... keep drawing non stop, then at nite play maple keep use attk key oso..... Restless.... (I deserve it!)

So scared tat i cant draw in the future......
if really 1 day i cant draw le then how? Eeeeeeee i dun wan!!!

Ok, jy bah...may more and more designs coming out asap....

Tired like hell now.... =.= lol....

Sleeping Apple Rain

Finally can say tat i have done this blog...
Wondering which blog title better,

Sleeping Apple Rain? Shining Apple Rain? Summering Apple Rain?

lol, sometimes too much consideration make ppls confuse onli...

Anyway.....
Im going to start my apple stories soon... ^^

Sleeping Apple Rain.... When u wake up? ...........

About Me

Always believe that, my left hand could fulfill my dreams......

I studied science when i was in secondary school,
Chong Hwa High School(CHHS),

which helping me to build up my dreams, and stacking up my memories......

My passion and sentiments burned from here,

Major in Jewellery Design,
when I studied at Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts.

Gemstone was telling me a lot of bling bling stories.

Life is full of unexpected surprises and hopes.

The key is you have to enjoy it! :)

I love happy sunshine colours!

You can feel the sunny mood in my drawing.

I wanna to tell you something, YES!!! Dun give up your dreams!

Dare to figure out, believe it, and chase it!

Though you will encounter many difficulties and obstacles in the journey.

There is always a Hope awaiting,

as long as you are still alive! :)


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What is AppleRain?

Apple,

It represents Dream and Hope in my drawings.

I'm loving to use colours, looking for a world of heart to discover our original mind...
Just like the Rain, could cleanse the earth,
meaning to remind us always remember to wash our dream and hope,

always remember to clean the sky which hiding in our heart.

Therefore, that's AppleRain...... :)


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关于妮妮 ♫

More about me......

姓名 : Annie Chong
昵称 : 妮妮 nienie / AppleRain
生日 : 28/10
星座 : 天蝎座 Scorpio
出生地 : Malaysia - Johor - Kluang, currently in Singapore
学校 : 居銮中华中学~理科, 南洋艺术学院/NAFA~珠宝设计

工作 : Freelance Jewellery Designer, Artist
嗜好 : 画画(WaterColour/Marker/Illustration/Acrylic Painting/CS3),
诗/文创作, 手工艺/卡片制作, 弹琴, 阅读, 所有和花有关的事物, Puzzle, Tarot Card, Blogging, Swimming

Website : www.sleepingapplerain.com

My shop: www.applerainworkshop.blogspot.com

FaceBook : http://www.facebook.com/anniecoral

deviantART : http://applerain.deviantart.com/
Art Group(FaceBook) : http://www.new.facebook.com/home.php#/group.php?gid=38389933834

Fav Movie : What dreams may come, 玻璃之城, Harry Potter

Fav Band : Mayday, SodaGreen
Fav Singer : 梁静茹, 郭静, 孙燕姿, S.H.E, Penny, 林宇中, 王力宏, 周杰伦, 曹格, 梁文福
Fav Music : POP, Classical, Jazz
Fav Artist : Kim Min Ji, Kagaya, 貴希/Takaki, Kazami, Miyo Abo, 宫崎峻, 新海诚, Claude Monet
Fav Art Style : Impressionism, Surrealism, WaterColour, Bold Cute Illustration, Fantasy
Fav Writer : 朱少霖, 张小娴, 倪匡, 三毛, Paulo Coelho
Fav Book : 伤心咖啡店之歌, The Alchemist, 卫斯理和木兰花系列
Fav Comic : ONE PIECE, 灵异教师神眉, 通灵小企鹅, 小甜甜, 阿宝美代系列, 蔡志忠系列, 蜡笔小新
Fav Animation : ONE PIECE, 炼金术士钢, 宫崎峻系列, 水果篮

Fav Cartoon Character : Roronoa Zoro, Luffy, Chopper... All Mugiwara Pirates, Edward Elric & Alphonse Elric, Belle, Ariel, Woodstock, 雪姬, 丑小鸭

Fav Colour : 白色, 黄色, 粉橙, 粉红, 天空蓝, 苹果绿
Fav Flower : 超多的, 几乎全部... 要选的话就... 向日葵, 海芋, 雏菊, 玫瑰, 山茶, 丁香, Iris
Fav Rose Colour : 黄色, 橙色, 粉红色
Fav Dessert : Cheese蛋糕, 巧克力, 冰淇淋, Apple Strudel, Fruit tart
Fav Food : Mummy's Cook, 面包, 面线, 麻辣火锅, 咖哩, 云吞面, 粽子, 鸡蛋, 芥兰
Fav Fruits : 人参果, 芒果, 山竹, 西瓜, 火龙果
Fav Drinks : Root Beer, 菊花茶, 凉粉, 芦荟白果, Ribena, Meiji Chocolate Milk, Coffee
Fav Animal : Chopper, 企鹅, 海豚, 狗狗, 绵羊KiKi
Fav Fashion Style : Modern Retro, Singlet with Jeans or Short Jeans, 露肩装, Boots, Low Heel
Fav Jewellery : 耳环, 发箍, 项链
Fav Stone : Moon Stone, Coral, Crystal
Fav Icon : 花草, 苹果, 向日葵, 樱桃, 星星, Snow Flake
Fav 宝贝 : Titus几米(遗失一只猫)limited edition No:063的手表, 一双金色有狮子和花树图样的高跟鞋, 一个小Gucci包包, 伴我睡觉的沙笼(抱着睡), 企鹅小P, 兔子小妮, 一把淡粉色镶深褐色蕾丝边缀玫瑰图样的雨伞, Technical Pen, Sketch Book, 我的家人
Fav Country : 挪威, 丹麦, 希腊, 尼泊尔

Personal Quote:
~ 将心比心
~ It always takes time to obtain something valuable!

Tools of the Trade: My left hand

My Hope:

~ 家人幸福安康, 朋友们开心平安

~ 世界和平, 花草树木大地动物安得其所

My Dream:

~拥有自己的画册

~学小提琴
~拥有自己的房子和车子啦

~ 成立AppleRain~售卖自己设计的各类东东

感想: 写着写着, 竟然有重新认识, 发掘自己的感觉.... 很久都没有这样子审视自己了, 虽然写这些的时候有点幼稚的~~ >.<

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